Friday, August 25, 2006
like i said,-wow.fullstop.
i didnt think anyone of my frenz would actually noe ANYTHING about my blog.
no one tagged...
i realli didnt think tt anyone would bored to read all my crap and depression.
if i were to read all those 'complains'+'depressions',
i MYSELF would go sian lor...
i didnt noe untill today
when i actually found out tt one of my fren,chia[for short-too lazy to type haha.]
asked me y i didnt go update this blog 4 so long.
well chia,
to tell you the truth,
I actually FORGOT about it.
Hahhahahhaha
REALLY
no kidding
well any ways
i guess I should update it huh
ok
yesterday,
at bmt training
erm…
wait
b4 bmt training
Iiwent 4 maths consultation
which was a total embarrassment to me
for I hv NEVER in my WHOLE live until now,
get into any ‘remidia’ for maths[no offense to those in it…]
there I was,
sitting in the front row
nxt to deb
miss tay gave us 2 pieces of maths ws which was so easy[no offence again]
i finished it within 5 mins
tt I could still copy out my eng compo corrections/drath
which needed to b handed up nxt mon
INFRONT of her
but what I couldn’t understand was
y didn’t she scold me or anything???
i mean
A teacher
sees a student
doing sumting other then the work she gave
INFRONT of her
n NOT scold her or ANYTHING
yet she actually PRAISED me…………[indirectly]
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i SO got nothing to say.
fullstop.final.
at least she doing somthing better[or sumthing like tt]
to deb cause she was cross-the-classroom-talking
after maths consult,
bren kindly waited for me to go to the bmt training at yishun 2gether
training starts at 2.30 but math consult oso start at the same time n ended at 3.30
1hr
so i was 1.5hr late
half hr travelling
bren is in the recreational team so she didnt need to do the thing assigned by ms quek
i did
sad rite?
i realised yst tt i really didnt like bmt
i dunno y
maybe i suck at it
maybe it no fun
i mean
i dont hv the mental concentration in bmt
i dont feel the enthusiasm in it
mayb it because im not with my best pals anymore
i missed them so much since we all separated fr pri sch
we used to play bmt at recess every day
n after the psle
everyday was heven
bmt,
card game,
truth or dare,
cball,
trashing the class
,sabo-ing each other,
every day is recess
wow
TT my fren to me is heven
juz as long tt im with my frenz n ms t.
i miss the good old days
i find tt now
my life realli sinks
rot.
smells.
so anyways
bak to the subj.
bmt is a kind of sport
u nid alot of enthusisam to play weel in them
i dun hv em
to me
im sort of in a 'remidia' part of bmt
whr the coach dont always concentrate on me
oni when it my turn to do the stuff..
i always get scolded my her
for not doing it rite
getting confused with the different activities
i noe itz been 8 mths now
but i got a realli bad memory
and my chinese suck[they usually tok chinese in bmt training]
so i cant realli understand what she's saying
+
not to mention
im being hated among all of the team mates
n we re support to b TEAM MATES
they hate me cause im bad at bmt
with all my weak shots
weak serves
bad aimings
i always get left out
and bmt news always comes late
and im pratically the one hu always noes it the last.
one time they even FORGET to tell me
hai wo wake up so early in the morning after a long tiring come hm late training
think there was a test for running.
i was so exhausted.
in the 1st place i didnt asked to b in the team
amanda was suppose to be in it but she didnt wanted to
so she quit
then ms quek juz HAD to choose me
i didnt expect tt
all of us didnt
i was expecting some one like karen instead
clara s out of the q
cause the others oso dun like her
dun ask
to tell you the truth
at tt moment
i was about 10%happy
200%sad,confused,OMG
so here i am
doing bmt
letting IT run MY life
mon-pe-tuition
tue-bmt
wed-bmt[physical]-piano
thu-bmt
fri-tuition-bmt
its owassy bmt this
bmt tt
im not like pam
crazy over sumthing
im not the kind of person hu can be so enthusisatis about out going stuff
although i used to
dunno what changed my mind
now
im juz
tv
tv
tv
musik
musik
musik
sleep
sleep
sleep
no more
tt
im already enough satified
anyways
at bmt training
i was doing at my own pace cause everybody else had finished
except me n gwen
when i finished
i got misunderstandedly scolded by ms quek
when she c me sitting down to rest when i JUZ finish all the foot work
as fast as i could
and then taking my well-deservered rest
then
me n gwen did multiples.
lifting
lifting
lifting
hers was pratically perfect
mine was like shit
no comments on tt
i kept saying sry to her
i gave the kind of sry,paisei look to her every time i said it
like it was natural reaction
which is
but to her
she though i was laughing
i so TOTALLY was NOT
she evern told me in tt aditude
'you dont said sorry to me.said sorry to yourself.'
i was shocked
appauld.
simply wanted to bash something up[maybe her...]
i mean
i dun hv time to pratice
i dun hv time to brush up my aiming
once my focus runs out
once i hv no will
no reason to continuing
i dun care amymore
my knee cant take it
my body isnt what it use to be in pri sch
my physical condition depends on my mood for the whole entire day
infact sometime
the whole week
it play a crucial part in my training
plus
i juz came back fr brain storming my hw
1st
they make me work my mind
straight away nxt
they make me work my body
this is going out of hand
this is absurd
i cant stand it anymore
i hate bmt
i hate ccas
i hate amkss
i HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!
well
the footwork n stroking was the worst part
after tt is the running
wnsidering tt i use to be a runner in pri sch
but then i oni jogged
i couldnt careless anymore
end up i still reserved quite an amount of energy left
mum didnt come fetch me
dad is overseas
mum diabeties is getting near the final stage
she's on the vurge of death soon
im real worried
in hope she gets better soon
life would be to guide me
at time of need
she didnt noe whr the place was
let alone how to go there
so i took the mrt to bishan fr yishun
pam lives in yishun
so she brought mt to the mrt station
b4 tt
ank bubble tea n had a nice chat
which really cool me down alot
itz nice to hv a chat once in a while with frenz
she told me about her horrible maid
hu blams everything on her n her brother
when she messes up
what a terrible person
anyways
i fell in love with the ice lemon tea flavoured bubble tea
it was SOSOSOOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOOSOSOOS NICE!!!!!
ahh...
after tt
i when to bishan
met mum
n guess what?
she oso bought me bubble tea
hahahha
what a conicident
oh
n i suspect this has sumthing to do with me finally passing my chinese.
im so happy about it.
ok
so tt was ysterday
now for today
today
chinese test
easy
i love janette for lending me her electronic dictionary
i could write all the chimchim words tt i could nv remember
and my story
i copied it fr the eng version of vangoths story of frendship
translated to chinese by mee
haha
pam wrote the same thing
but i hope the teacher suspect tt we copied each other
we most certainly DID NOT
maths test
was hard
i got lots of wrong
dere goes my chance of getting out of maths consultation the short cut way
oni specially for me
caus ethe last test i fail was totally because of my carelessness
TOTALLY carelessness
i guess i didnt understand because
maybe i was over confident
even though i tried not to
but 'it' some how got through me
sad
sad
sad
today
suddenly no bmt training
im SOSOSOSOSOOSOSOS HAPPYYYYYYY!!!
like SIAOOOO!!!!!>>><<<
omg
omg
omg
hu cares
my day of rest is wasted n ms chows going away
WAHHHHH
nxt mon is the last day we're gonna c her ever again
n hv tt stupid soft spoken teacher hus method of teacher sucks
n is sosososoosso borring
unlike our miss chow
i like miss chow
she's pratically like ms t.
>>><<<
i miss ms t.>>><<<
sigh
we're gonna get the geo result fr her this mon
cant wait
oh NO!!!
wrist is hurtting now
was my left wrist 1st
but i hurt my right wrist while trying to protect my left wrist
so now both still hvnt fully recover
n the right one is starting to hurt real badly
i gotta stop
i cant fell it no more
bb
tell u more the nxt time if i get a chance.
cya
- it's me.
Saturday, August 12, 2006
eh...haha..i've got nothing better to do n i got nothing better to write either...haha..lol..rof...but anyways..writing crap bets doin' nothing eh?SO...i'll juz tell u what recently happened...
...
or the past?
...
ok.
so i broken my wrist.and guess what?
it was my left.my south paw-NOT my right
when im a right hander.
and to top it all of,
i didnt noe how i broke it.
tt day,
i came back hm fr badminton training on a fri night
played my com
chat a little
den
my wrist juz started to hurt
and this incident happened on the 10 of JULY.
had to skip training for 2 whole weeks =_=
got a big cast...
damn irritating..
so bulky...
makes me feel so stupid looking...=_=
i even had to
DANCE in it...
u can juz imagine how like..
dancing in a cast...
...
...
...
even now it still hurts a little when i do certain stuff...
i still cant lift heavy things too
n not to mention,
on helping my left wrist to recover fast by only using my right wrist/hand whatever..
i think i oso broke it a little.
despite tt(arm in cast) i still hv to BATHE with only ONE miserable hand...
u can juzt imagine how hrad it is to crub ur back or hair......
i NEVER wanna go through tt again.
ok. then after this,
now,
im dead sick.
bad flu.
bad throat.
cant breathe.
but still hv to go 4 training...
haha...
this is my life.
tough as ever.
sometimes i wish i had never sign up 4 badminton
but then again,
i wouldnt know which cca to join in the end.
i wouldnt wanna goo 4 band or quire(dunno how to spell...-ya noe...the singing one?)
or worst still uniform group
(though ncc air seem interesting
but i DEFINATELY
HATEmarching around
and
those AWFUL long boring ceremonies-
i wouldnt survive it.im already pratically dying in badminton training.)
with the preasure of the teacher n 'team members'
they held a photo taking section recently
but they kept post poning it
i think about like FOUR times already
f the excuse was
BECAUSE THE PHOTOGRAPHER
BAILED ON US.
can u believe tt?
so last fri
when i suddenly got sick
they FINALLY had the stupid photo taking in sch.
but i didnt go
n now
they wanna have another one on nxt tue.
sigh
i really dont like badminton.
itz so tiring
i mean
4 times a week
mon-pe
tue-badminton training
wed-physical training(part of badminton)
thu-badminton training
fri-multiples(ALSO part of badminton)
C?
is so tiring
my body is giving out on me
my left wrist is screaming
my right back bone is yelling
my throat if killing
and
my nose is running
...[no comments on tt.]
even my knees are stinging.
...
but then again...
if i was so busy with badminton,
i wouldnt noe wat to do when i get hm
i would juz keep watching tv all day long
4get about hw
n grow as fat as a pig
failing every napfa each year
unlike now,
gold gold gold
haha
but i wished tt my sch had a more exciting club
like maybe...
tennis?
archery?
rifel?
shooting?
n i wished they had more exciting moves for the cheerleading club.
i mean i juz saw them in action last sunday and they really dont amaze me at all
though i cant do any of them..
haha..
arhhh..!
i got nothing more to write...
so i'll juz leave it here for now ok?
cya.
till nxt time
when im free...
n tt ll be like...
dunno when.
ps:i actually totally forgot about updating my blog.ehehe..sry.
- it's me.
